That was how I was thinking early in my faith walk, and it was STUPID.
I had elected myself as “boss” and was making every decision in my life as if it was nothing more than ordering lunch. Everything boiled down to a transaction. It was a mechanical and sterile existence. And it was horrible.
When fear and worry settle in for a very long stay, the most common reaction is to analyze the facts. Studying all of the information makes us feel better, and there is nothing wrong with doing that. The problem is that we don’t give them over to God FIRST.
In effect, I was saying to God, “I don’t need the power you have available for me. I’ll lead myself through the battlefields of the worry war, because I have confidence in ME.”
I can see now that my approach had forced me to assume all responsibility for dealing with doubt and worry and fear. I didn’t know back then that was an impossible task.
When we don’t turn our DOUBTS over to God, they will burn emotional holes through our soul.
When we WORRY for a prolonged period, we forfeit hope for living a quiet and balanced life.
When we allow FEAR to rent a room in our house, we kick joy out to live in the streets.
Breaking free from the weight of doubt and worry is dependent on kneeling before God and asking him for help. We must fire ourselves as boss.
The rewards are deep, glorious, and immediate. Best of all, the decisions we make that impact our spiritual life will take on much more weight than our lunch order.
I ask God to help me discern when my pride starts taking over as the leader of my life.
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
What are you having for lunch today? How often are you taking over God’s job and playing boss of your life?
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth gives way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.” Psalm 46:1-2
